Spring break!!!

OK so spring break started on Monday. So far I've cleaned out my room of all my old toys and clothes. It was harder then you'd think. I broke down and kept some of my old winx club dolls, only the originals, to add to my anime shelf, which like the floor of my room needs to be cleaned!!!!
Then Saturday i babysat for Diva's fam, actually a pretty good day. Then Monday i babysat for Ash's family, that was a little bit harder on me, but oh well! Then on Tuesday i did a lot of filming with S.R.P. ummm ya we are gonna have to film another video soon.
Either ways, i hope summer can be this productive. But it won't be until after my birthday party in July, which is gonna leave me a sitting duck until after. So when my birthday party is done, I'm gonna take a sleeping pill, wake up whenever i do, and make an appointment to cut my hair. Then i will bounce right back up and get started on cosplay stuff only!

I can do this, even without Reborns dieing will bullet, I CAN DO THIS!!!!

Side note- diva's sister

All in a day Ok hey future self, as of this comming monday u've got spring break. But today you watched divas kid sister all day, you got $20 for it and ya know what you deserved it, it was nice to work and earn your own money, gives you a sense that you did something.

What might that be thats on its way? Hmmmm.....?

Well it be Spring and Summer. Oh hell ya. Its a commin and its a commin fast..... thats what she said, sorry couldn't help it. Either ways up comming crap!

My first communion and my 15th b-day, oh ya the big 1- 5

And then i want to do a little photoshoot for easter and then there's sort of a concert and a meetup comming up fast. I hope things go well! And then there's summer, oh god i won't be able to do a whole lot during june and july except babysit and plan for my stupid b-day thing so that i won't piss off my mom. So really once its done i'll have to sleep in a little then bounce right back up and get going with my cosplays, aka i'm gonna be dead by the time school starts but ya i need to not waste this summer away, i can't afford to do that this year.

what to say in review

You see when i take a look at this year in review i realize how much I've grown and how strong I've had to be, keep in mind when i say year i mean the school year. Ya there was ending things with that one person, i know deep down he kinda hates me for it but i just couldn't do it any more, it was to much crap i didn't need to deal with. Then there was that other person, female i might add, that I've kinda always un-knowingly been in love with. To bad she couldn't care less about how her decisions where affecting the people who had the guts to confess to her. She was only concerned with being loved and not how much she was hurting the people who did love her by not being clear and rejecting them. That really pissed me off, and my friend also really liked her, and its not like i was about to say anything. So for the longest time I've had to just deal, and finally i want to just let it die, but i don't know if i ever can, its like that one other time. Except that time there wasn't much of a fight on my end to let the whole thing go.
Then there was Kibi's move. I had to try my absolute best to keep from crying the entire time after so that diva wouldn't cry, i hated it. On my way home i broke down crying at the park from a flood of memory's of international cosplay day. Some times i wish i didn't have to be strong for all the people around me. But life is never gonna be that simple.
Sorry love,  i know one day you'll look back at this post and think, "wtf? where you pmsing?", answer..... sort of, but its just stuff that's been on my mind for a while now. Its hard to look to a future that's not there. Sometime this year I'll have to right a letter to my Senior self, what should i say? What should i ask? I wonder? Hmmmmm? I guess I'll just keep thinking.
I had a dream about kibi recently, we were juniors and she came back to visit for AMKE. We were doing the vendors alley that year too and things were crazier then usual with her there. I think i almost blew up and screamed at her that things where better without her there and hit her but i pulled my arm back picked up a volume of mixed vegetables and walked away one i was out of sight i ran to the air line center. It was a sweet yet very realistic dream. Then at the end of the weekend she told us she was visiting because she was moving back.

talk #12 to recap all the shit thats been going down in this state.

Ok so ya we made history when this whole thing started, and the bill got passed a few days ago and today Madison is hosting an un-imaginable amount of protesters! Things are insane everywhere, things only got worse with news from Japan. I'm very lucky yet un-lucky to live where i do.


Here is what i posted on DA the day before i left for AMKE


Well at least the Capital of Wisconsin is basicaly on strike, protesting the new Bill the states trying to pass to take away the Unions rights and to take away from our education. Not to mention the state employies, which make up most of madison and its suburbs, hence why i'm posting this. 
Teachers, students, and state workers(including my mom) our out on this gloomy, dark, wet day protesting. I'm sitting at home because i woke up this morning to a call from the school district saying i have no school today then went back to bed. Things are in chaos right now and so i'm posting this. Its all so insane i just can't believe its happening. Its going to affect me in almost every way, considering i go to a school in a suburb of Madison, and its one of, if not the best, in the whole state. Then there's my mom's job. She works for the state and we honestly can't afford to lose any more money considering my brothers in law school. Trust me her job from the state is the best thing to have ever happened to us, if it weren't for my brothers law school expenses my mom could just have one job and life would be better for us and my brother...... gosh why am i ranting like this.

To be honest the whole thing is just upsetting.



I'm lucky i was able to escape to Milwaukee then i saw from one of Sooya's fb post that it wasn't any better there.


Last sunday i believe i got to go to the capital and i even got to go inside for a little bit. To be honest it just made me want to cry. The moment most people have of understanding and sort of a breaking point for me was when i saw that guy get up onto the pillar thing and bash away at the snare drum to help the chants keep a beat. 

From my itouch

Sent from my iPod I just wanted to test out using the email thing thats kind of just been lying around

3 things a month

I did this a long time ago with an old blog i had. 3 things a month you should aim to do.

One, take a nap! A nice long nap can do you wonders. This coming from a person who fell asleep at 5 one day and woke up at 7 the next day still feeling tired. Either way in this day and age its a really good idea.
Two say hi to someone you haven't in a while. We sometimes forget about the people who have left us, just don't forget to say hi once in a blue moon.
Three, watch a funny youtube video, something that will make you laugh in general will work. I recommend going back and watching an old nigahiga vid.
Either ways i've got a date with cold toast, my scanner and a bunch of new post that i've been putting on DA instead of here, sorry!

Talk #11 in review of AMKE

So, gosh am i about to pass out. I've got about a million things running like crazy in mind, S.R.P., cosplays, school, my birthday, Coffin Kissers, and about a million other things. Either way when i'm not insanely tired i'll post a real update. 
So i wrote that a day or two ago, here's the re-cap i posted on DA of AMKE




 Ok i'm now back from AMKE, and i'm sick, i guess being around sick people all weekend will do that to you. 
Here’s the video version in case you don’t want to read this whole thing through.

Ok's so thursday and friday i ended up having no school and Thursday i worked away at Sanatales Zatsune costume and wig. On friday i had an early start and headed off to the school to pick up Sanatales coat and made sure we had directions on how to get to Milwaukee and made sure to drop Sanatales off with a friend so he could teach her how to tie a tie. Then she came to my house and we got into our Ritsuka and Seimei loveless cosplays and hung out and relaxed until 12 when Yukihime picked her up. I waited around until about 2 then headed off to pick up diva and we both headed off to Cree's house. We left later then Yukihime and the people who rode up with her since Ash had to babysit her brothers until 3.

We were on the rode by 3:10 which is really good for us. We watched Alladin and the king of theives on the way up. We only stopped once and got there at exactly 5. After we had some issues getting into the elevator and finally we dumped everything in the room, got Diva into her Italy wig and we were off to the con. 
Right off the bat i heard someone screaming my name i turn around to see my friend Mina running at me, after she walks away i turn around to find my friend Ryan, i turn around once again to find my friend Dustin in drag. BEST GREETTING EVER! I got my badge and wandered around for a while, saw stuff and played tetris. Got stuff kind of unpacked and I helped Yukihime change. Cree and I looked around for a location to do the photoshoot and we decided to just do it in the Sky walk. We did Diva, Sanatales, and my photo shoots and then we went back to our room to get Sanatales changed and I got out of my cosplay and we headed out again to the vocaloid photoshoot. We got stuck in the elevators cause some idiot pushed all of the buttons so we had to go all the way up to the 18th floor, then we realized it was a straight drop from the 18th floor the 2nd floor and we scrambled to press other buttons. Finally we got to the photo shoot and Yukihime was a no show for a good chunk of it so we did a small photo shoot for Sanatales. And my camera Basil decided that he didn’t like the lighting in the sky walk and was one heck of a female dog throughout the entire thing. But hey, Basil had a few moments. We met up with some old friends after Yukihime got there and Cree, Sanatales, Coco, Ash and I all headed back to our rooms to just pass out since most of them were sick. We had a lot of ramen noodles and chips and watched a documentery on Morgan Freemen and then Sanatales and I fell asleep after Diva came back.

The next day our alarms went off at around 7:30 and I got up and got mostly ready to go for the day so that I could help everyone else with their cosplay. Soon after diva got up and she and Sanatales had breakfast. I got into binding and helped Sanatales into her Zatsune costume and once we were dressed I did Sanatales makeup and she did a little bit of my Lambo makeup and then we spent the rest of the time getting Diva into her Rip Van Winkle cosplay and dear god was her wig a female dog. Finally we were all dressed and just headed out. We wandered around and played a lot of ddr and stuff. Then around 11 we went up to the Polaris room where the maid café was and we had the best cake ever! But it was short lived since we had to go back to the room and finish packing and put everything in the car we had come up in. After that I did Coco’s Chii photoshoot, and Basil pulled through for me and took the most amazing pictures ever! We spent a long time in line to have to Enthusiast take our pictures, but it was fun we met some really nice people in line. Once everyone had their pictures taken we watched a Pokemon movie and just went around saying bye to people and spending the last of our money. We left around 6 on Saturday night since there was an ice storm on the way and we stopped at Mcdonalds on the way home, and god was it funny. I tried to dive from the back seat of the van to the middle part and got stuck, I took my binding off in front of a lot of people, Cree also tried to get me to order her a Cheese Burger, but without the burger part, no words could begin to describe how hard I laughed, and we influenced a bunch of little kids. Safe to say Anime Milwaukee was amazing!!!!